the way i feel inside...

today is my birthday. there are so many candles, but only one wish i want to make









i wonder if she remembers me? if i felt that i could be certain, i would say the things i want to say tonight...

three things I love right now...

hello drenched debt. the shiner tastes like manuscripts around midnight...






press play all at the same time

i'm living a life of dreams

if you aren't aware of chocolate bobka, you are missing out. free music laid out with meaning methods. its like some beautiful girl coming up to you and giving you a polaroid of the sun shining through the trees. what did you ever do to deserve this?
a good jumping off point: #26 another day in the park
everything else is here

fatalism

I was promised jetpacks. Is that what this life is? Just a series of disappointments with a few brief shining moments of beauty? This song speaks for me right now, melancholy but triumphant. My cries of anguish go unheard in an empty house...

sunny day, chasing the clouds away

it is in the mornings that I miss her most. I wake from the dreams of her, to find myself alone in an empty bed and with no resolve to withstand the crushing of my heart into powder...

tear out the strings connected to our hearts

you may say party, they may say die, but I say thank you for poisoning my heart

the philosopy of time travel

in my acclimation to my new surroundings, I have noticed that time functions in a very specific way here. and naturally, thinking of time and travel led me to devote some serious thought to the concept of time travel. most depictions of time travel involve some catalyst taking place that enables a vessel to transverse a portal and travel through time. even roberta sparrow can tell you that. but my realization was that the necessary energy required for a feat like traveling years or even days into the past or future cannot be produced by any elemental source and so the concept of a flux capacitor is a dead end. the only available alternative in the inherent life energy inside a living person. and again, the necessary energy required for a monumental feat like traveling years ahead in time would be so great as to drain the entirety of bio-electrical stores within a person and kill them. so the only available means for non-lethal time travel is to reduce the alloted distance through which the time travel would take place, down to mere minutes. also, several philosophical mindsets can be arranged that effectively allow a person to travel through time. if we make the assumption that all time is relative, then the world of time begins to open for any traveler.
- if you think of today as existing in the past, you have effectively traveled back in time
- cross any time zone barrier and you have traveled forward or backward in time from your relative position
- any travel that effectively covers distance also covers time. Space and time are related

awareness in an individual is what leads to conscious thought. if a person is unaware of time passing, then they cannot be said to be conscious of that time passing and for that person, time is effectively standing still. sleep is another example of this phenomenon. in essence, the concept of skipping over periods of time or returning to past moments is impossible. however, alterations to an individual's relationship with the relativity of time can be achieved. these alterations can produce the effect of time travel, and these effects, along with belief, allow a person to travel through time. I only know one way to travel into the past: recollection of memory. and I only know one way to travel into the future: one minute at a time.